Perfectly Apportioned Grace

This week has continued without court news.

After sending a frantic email asking why every other family has a court date but us, our precious case manager sent me a lengthy email encouraging me in the wait. I'll spare you from copying & pasting the whole thing, but here is part of it:


This season of your adoption journey is not just important for court or legal reasons, but also because as you move through each step and milestone- the piles of legal documentation, waiting for court dates, and navigating through the embassy process, the Lord is working on you.  He is molding and shaping you into the parents He already knows you are by testing and refining your patience, trust in Him, perseverance, and adaptability.  The adoption process in its entirety is tough—there are delays, setbacks, fluctuating time frames, expiration dates, process changes, new requirements that seem to come out of nowhere…  We have these ideas—perfect pictures—of everything just falling into place perfectly, but the reality is, there is no such process, and sometimes, although we fight it with the super strength of a parent - it’s important to experience these difficult situations.  They prepare you for the days ahead of frantic packing, red eye flights on zero hours of sleep, legal proceedings, and the most difficult experience yet- saying goodbye to your son between trips.  While you have a few precious and emotionally restorative photos of your child, it is so very difficult to wait at this stage. And… even though you don’t yet know the feel of his touch, or the sound of his cry, this child is yours already.

In addition to this email, I have been awakened to the thought that it's not a matter of "IF" our son will come home but "WHEN" he will come home! And IF we "lose" our son's referral due to different circumstances, God will sustain us then, and we will move forward in this call to adoption, no matter how difficult or lengthy the process is.

There is not only a REASON for this wait period, but I have been given the exact amount of grace needed to survive it. 


But to each one of us grace has been given as Christ apportioned it. Ephesians 4:7

God is sustaining me each day, even in the times that I don't know if I can handle this wait any longer. God has ordained this moment and season with perfectly apportioned grace.

Not only so, but we also glory in our sufferings, because we know that suffering produces perseverance;  perseverance, character; and character, hope.  And hope does not put us to shame, because God’s love has been poured out into our hearts through the Holy Spirit, who has been given to us. Romans 5:3-5